Hi, blog, it's been a while since my last entry. Christmas holiday was OK, but a bit dry. I didn't do much. I wish that I had made plans, but it didn't happen.
It is now January and it's still warm to hot, lol. I've gotten over that initial phase of being surprised that everyday is hot and beautiful. Now, I notice little changes in the trees and in animals and in the humor of people in regard to the seasons.
At times I'm a bit bored, but I keep myself focused on graduating with my MLIS degree from SJSU!
I just submitted my application for graduation. I'm happy about the prospect of finishing my degree.
I wish that I were free to travel more and just go out, but life is what it is. I have an interview by telephone this evening at 9 PM for a librarian position in Macau, China. I'm crossing my fingers that I get the job or get primary choice.
I think this may be my last occasion at teaching abroad. I hope to practice being a librarian after Martinique.
I still have some awkwardness to deal with like at church I don't feel comfortable with the sons of the pastor. I need to be more kind and not worry about how I appear. My social anxiety is crazy. Often I need to scream! I need to... unwind in a way that I cannot most days here in Martinique. (sigh)
My title for this post is "Softer Men Not Appreciated?" because I got the impression that a middle school boy whom I don't teach was saying something about me being gay. I didn't understand what he said. Me being sensitive, I started to feel bad, but I tell myself that if the person does not talk to me directly, then I shouldn't worry about what they say. I assume that they don't like my soft demeanor. For me it is natural. Well, I'll just keep faithful to God concerning love.
I told one girl today, Cassandra not to wear her I LOVE PLAYBOY belt. I hope that she stops wearing it. I told her it represents women who dress sexy and sell their bodies. Let's see what she does.
I must be honest, I'm more interested in my studies than in living in Martinique. I'm being spoiled again, but it's the truth. I feel like I've learned enough here and I'm ready to head back to the U.S. I only have another three months and then I'll be on my way back home.
I have this weird tug of war complex. Part of me is happy when I go out to do things, then part of me is... bored when I just stay in Marin or if I don't really see or talk to anyone. Sometimes there's a lack of intellectual stimulation here, but I guess I should put on a smile and just be happy, though that is so against my nature.
Well... I'll try my best to be happy nonetheless. I may go to Fort de France this Saturday to see a movie and to go to the Schoelcher Library. I must return those books that I borrowed.
Until next time,
Aaron
It is now January and it's still warm to hot, lol. I've gotten over that initial phase of being surprised that everyday is hot and beautiful. Now, I notice little changes in the trees and in animals and in the humor of people in regard to the seasons.
At times I'm a bit bored, but I keep myself focused on graduating with my MLIS degree from SJSU!
I just submitted my application for graduation. I'm happy about the prospect of finishing my degree.
I wish that I were free to travel more and just go out, but life is what it is. I have an interview by telephone this evening at 9 PM for a librarian position in Macau, China. I'm crossing my fingers that I get the job or get primary choice.
I think this may be my last occasion at teaching abroad. I hope to practice being a librarian after Martinique.
I still have some awkwardness to deal with like at church I don't feel comfortable with the sons of the pastor. I need to be more kind and not worry about how I appear. My social anxiety is crazy. Often I need to scream! I need to... unwind in a way that I cannot most days here in Martinique. (sigh)
My title for this post is "Softer Men Not Appreciated?" because I got the impression that a middle school boy whom I don't teach was saying something about me being gay. I didn't understand what he said. Me being sensitive, I started to feel bad, but I tell myself that if the person does not talk to me directly, then I shouldn't worry about what they say. I assume that they don't like my soft demeanor. For me it is natural. Well, I'll just keep faithful to God concerning love.
I told one girl today, Cassandra not to wear her I LOVE PLAYBOY belt. I hope that she stops wearing it. I told her it represents women who dress sexy and sell their bodies. Let's see what she does.
I must be honest, I'm more interested in my studies than in living in Martinique. I'm being spoiled again, but it's the truth. I feel like I've learned enough here and I'm ready to head back to the U.S. I only have another three months and then I'll be on my way back home.
I have this weird tug of war complex. Part of me is happy when I go out to do things, then part of me is... bored when I just stay in Marin or if I don't really see or talk to anyone. Sometimes there's a lack of intellectual stimulation here, but I guess I should put on a smile and just be happy, though that is so against my nature.
Well... I'll try my best to be happy nonetheless. I may go to Fort de France this Saturday to see a movie and to go to the Schoelcher Library. I must return those books that I borrowed.
Until next time,
Aaron
